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Of course I haven't been posting anything because, as usual, I lack inspiration. I swear it's like my creativity streak flew out the window once I became depressed. On the bright side, I'm okay at the moment. Also I know I didn't bother mentioning this but I finally graduated from high school (thank god, and it was June 6th if you're wondering) and soon will be heading off to college in August. I'm hoping to have a double major in both art and psychology. I'm kind of surprised I am actually showing a little more interest in art like I used to. I think my concentration will be drawing and painting since I kinda have a little experience with drawing and I always wanted to try painting. I also, for some reason, want to major in music and maybe have a minor in communication. I don't know I always wanted to major in music but I also wanted to try something that I most likely might get a career in, which is psychology. As for art, I just wanted to expand my interest, same for music. But the music thing, might be after I become a senior in college or something I don't know. Orientation for me is on July 15th, so I have to make sure I not only remind my dad but also sign up for it (yeah my dumb ass didn't sign up for orientation yet because I have a HUGE procrastination problem )
As for writing---meh. Like I said before, my creativity streak died on me. Like even when I try to be creative it doesn't work. It just doesn't sound good enough. Honestly, I miss the creativity streaks I used to always have, but either way I'm not really an "original" writer. Now these days I don't think I'm good at writing anymore. My writing is becoming unoriginal and crappy :/ As for drawing, well, I decided to give that another shot when college starts. After seeing all those courses, it made me excited about art again, so I just thought "why the hell not?" and that's one of the things I'm majoring in.
My life in general? It's okay. Although every now and then, I can't help but to spiral down into self-hatred and depression sometimes. I also finally opened up about something I went through as a kid, at least to certain people. I'm not necessarily over it I would say, I just try to bury it in the back of my head again, which kind of works for me for a while. Family wise, things are okay. I kinda feel guilty because I haven't been visiting my god mom like I was suppose to a couple of weeks ago :/ I think she's going to be pissed off at me for it and I wish I actually visited but I'm kinda scared to now because..well..I don't know I'm worried that she'll be really pissed off. Yeah, pathetic I know but unfortunately I'm a fucking wimp, and I don't blame her if she does get mad at me.
I'm finally almost done completing my FASFA and I'm trying to look for a job. It's really hard to get a job unfortunately, at least for me. It's starting to make me feel like giving up but I know I have to keep trying otherwise I won't get anywhere. Ugh, I can't wait to get out of Detroit and go to Saginaw already. Eventually I have to learn how to drive too. Anything else? Well I have a new lover in my life and honestly, she's amazing I love how supportive she is of me and understanding towards me. She's actually the one that made me forget I was even depressed in the first place, even though I fall back into it every now and then. I'm glad that I make her happy as well. It's the best feeling ever when you changed someone in a positive way and helped them some how in their lives.
I figured since I'm starting fresh in college, I decided that I wanted to change myself, or discover who I am. Find different interests and activities I want to try. Do more activities and be active and stuff. Hell, maybe even transform into the person I always wanted to be, or at least try to. I also want to try things I always wanted to do as a kid like learn to sing, and play more instruments, try fashion design. As corny as that sounds I still kind of want to try these things. Maybe not all in college but somewhere throughout these years I want to try these things. Who knows, maybe I'll end up picking a career or two after learning some things.
Of course I haven't been posting anything because, as usual, I lack inspiration. I swear it's like my creativity streak flew out the window once I became depressed. On the bright side, I'm okay at the moment. Also I know I didn't bother mentioning this but I finally graduated from high school (thank god, and it was June 6th if you're wondering) and soon will be heading off to college in August. I'm hoping to have a double major in both art and psychology. I'm kind of surprised I am actually showing a little more interest in art like I used to. I think my concentration will be drawing and painting since I kinda have a little experience with drawing and I always wanted to try painting. I also, for some reason, want to major in music and maybe have a minor in communication. I don't know I always wanted to major in music but I also wanted to try something that I most likely might get a career in, which is psychology. As for art, I just wanted to expand my interest, same for music. But the music thing, might be after I become a senior in college or something I don't know. Orientation for me is on July 15th, so I have to make sure I not only remind my dad but also sign up for it (yeah my dumb ass didn't sign up for orientation yet because I have a HUGE procrastination problem )
As for writing---meh. Like I said before, my creativity streak died on me. Like even when I try to be creative it doesn't work. It just doesn't sound good enough. Honestly, I miss the creativity streaks I used to always have, but either way I'm not really an "original" writer. Now these days I don't think I'm good at writing anymore. My writing is becoming unoriginal and crappy :/ As for drawing, well, I decided to give that another shot when college starts. After seeing all those courses, it made me excited about art again, so I just thought "why the hell not?" and that's one of the things I'm majoring in.
My life in general? It's okay. Although every now and then, I can't help but to spiral down into self-hatred and depression sometimes. I also finally opened up about something I went through as a kid, at least to certain people. I'm not necessarily over it I would say, I just try to bury it in the back of my head again, which kind of works for me for a while. Family wise, things are okay. I kinda feel guilty because I haven't been visiting my god mom like I was suppose to a couple of weeks ago :/ I think she's going to be pissed off at me for it and I wish I actually visited but I'm kinda scared to now because..well..I don't know I'm worried that she'll be really pissed off. Yeah, pathetic I know but unfortunately I'm a fucking wimp, and I don't blame her if she does get mad at me.
I'm finally almost done completing my FASFA and I'm trying to look for a job. It's really hard to get a job unfortunately, at least for me. It's starting to make me feel like giving up but I know I have to keep trying otherwise I won't get anywhere. Ugh, I can't wait to get out of Detroit and go to Saginaw already. Eventually I have to learn how to drive too. Anything else? Well I have a new lover in my life and honestly, she's amazing I love how supportive she is of me and understanding towards me. She's actually the one that made me forget I was even depressed in the first place, even though I fall back into it every now and then. I'm glad that I make her happy as well. It's the best feeling ever when you changed someone in a positive way and helped them some how in their lives.
I figured since I'm starting fresh in college, I decided that I wanted to change myself, or discover who I am. Find different interests and activities I want to try. Do more activities and be active and stuff. Hell, maybe even transform into the person I always wanted to be, or at least try to. I also want to try things I always wanted to do as a kid like learn to sing, and play more instruments, try fashion design. As corny as that sounds I still kind of want to try these things. Maybe not all in college but somewhere throughout these years I want to try these things. Who knows, maybe I'll end up picking a career or two after learning some things.
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Ello Guys
So 2014 is almost over and ever since Christmas day I've been thinking of starting fresh with my life. Been thinking of getting therapy (for anger management, depression, etc. ), going to a doctor to get a diagnosis for depression and what not, and a long with a few other goals such as college and such. Not only that but I also thought about making a new account on here. Leave this old account behind and completely start fresh. Don't ask me why I just feel that it's necessary you know? Of course that doesn't mean you guys can't follow me or nothing. If you want to you can still follow me and I'll make sure to follow you guys as well. It's tim
The News You Might Have been waiting for
After looking back at some old poems and what not I want to give writing another shot. Maybe it is my calling. I want to try to experiment with different writing styles as well. As for posting them on DA? Well....that's a maybe and maybe not. I might put some up if I feel like it just to put some new stuff up and what not. But we'll see
Music Teacher Maybe?
Soo for a couple of days I finally thought of what I want to do with my life. I decided that I want to be a music teacher. Why? Well I love music and I like to help ppl and hope to inspire them :)
I mean, I NEVER thought I would put me and teacher in the same sentence lol but I want to do it. I would love to advance my skills in music and also teach others. I want to be a instrumentalist teacher and just teach and play brass, percussion, strings, and woodwinds. Hopefully I'll get through this and be a good teacher in the future
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